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As consenting adults, skin-to-skin intimacy should be a choice that is not demonized or marginalized. Just writing about skin-to-skin is so exciting that I want to take a break right now and jerk off. The Bareback Brotherhood advocates on behalf of raw sex, knowing that many men engage but hide. That time I got fucked by another positive guy, I felt I didn’t have to fear HIV any longer.

As positive men understand resistance better, there may be more reluctance to pick up a new form of the virus. The connection feels closer and more intimate. I relaxed into my desires instead of fighting them and felt good doing so. It certainly isn’t smart to pick up one of those mean, cross-resistant monsters-I’m now “immune” to every antiretroviral on the market.

When he came inside me, I was in heaven, just overjoyed. With such delicious images, it’s easy to stop thinking of it as unsafe sex.

I can’t comment on a negative guy’s decision to go raw, but for us positive men, the benefits are obvious. Then there’s the satisfaction of knowing that seroconverting has its advantages (Or, to use American Express-speak, “Membership has its privileges.”) It’s a tasty revenge.

There’s even something empowering about the idea of sharing someone else’s HIV.

It’s like being thrown into jail for life and then, while serving your time, having the warden threaten to extend your sentence. The Bareback Brotherhood is a group without judgment and with mutual respect for all, no matter sero-status — positive, negative or unknown. Then there’s the issue of STDs, some of which are very nasty.

Riding bareback with other positive men is a less guilt-ridden way to indulge in that exploration.

I’ve only gone raw with a positive guy that one time. Or gone looking for it. A quick search of America Online member profiles revealed 118 guys into condomless sex, 25 of whom identified as positive and four as negative, with the rest undisclosing.

For me, being infected in the first place is such a doomful event that any act that brings pleasure, even a risky one, is worth grabbing for. And not easy to measure: How do you know if you’ve been reinfected anyway? Already resistant to all approved nucleoside analogs and protease inhibitors, I worry little about being reinfected with a more dangerous virus.

Tons of positive men (including me) are walking storehouses of mutant, multi-drug resistant (MDR) virus. With more than 6,000 members worldwide, you will find a very active online social community. The threat has no power because nothing can make a life sentence any worse. With the risks so hazy and the benefits so brilliantly clear, no wonder riding bareback is all the rage.

Founders who maintain official rosters are as follows (in alphabetical order):
@Ch4sUK (http://Twitter.com/ch4suk)
@GAPozAthens (http://Twitter.com/gapozathens)
@iBlastInside (http://Twitter.com/iblastinside)